Who's up?

‎Who's awake? So I just wanna pour out my heart ‎ ‎I think my era of dating might be over. Not because I’m heartbroken, but because I’ve become the opposite. I’m usually the one who ends up breaking hearts. I used to be a hopeless romantic, but now I feel emotionally numb and more like a robot . ‎ ‎When it comes to love, I seem to have terrible luck. The women I truly love something always comes up to ruin things and the women who love mez genuinely good women, I find myself unable to give them what they deserve. I try to love them back fully, but no matter how much I want to, it’s never enough. ‎ No woman wants a man who says good morning and disappears till evening. No one wants a partner who’s okay with not calling and if I’m being honest, that’s who I’ve become. ‎ ‎I can’t imagine getting married without love. I’d never forgive myself for that. So rather than stay in relationships where I can’t show up properly, I feel it’s better to step aside and let women find men who can love them the way they deserve. ‎ ‎Maybe I’m not meeting the wrong people. Maybe I’m the problem. I feel disenchanted with love itself. After being hurt too many times, love now feels like stress and an inevitable heartbreak waiting to happen. ‎ ‎For now, I think it’s best I remove myself from relationships altogether. ‎