Am i the only one who is scared of getting married?

I'm an emotionally complex person, I've never had a serious relationship until I finished higher institution. Girls do ask me out right from secondary school down to higher institution but I've noticed once such occurs, i lose interest in them.... I might be crushing on you but once you make the first move, i withdraw. At some point, i felt i was cursed... Till i met two ladies. I love both of them and I'm not a fan of polygamy but if i was given a choice between them i wouldn't be able to choose. The first one, we connect on okay level, she loves me so much and gives me her time.... This has me drawn to her... I had to leave due to her anger issues, I can't even express myself for fear of getting into a quarrel. The second person, she's everything i could ever wanted, we connect well, we love each other but.... She's always busy as she's a nurse. I met her parents and talks about marriage were on ground.... At first i tried to tolerate her work load, but as time went on i wasn't happy, we would go for weeks without talking on the phone, we were having a conversation one time and she asked me to promise to never ask her to choose between her marriage and her work... Because she wouldn't be able to choose. I had to withdraw... It was very painful because i still love her but i had to do it for our own good. She hates me now but i tell myself it's better than for her to hate me when we are married... I don't want to be that husband who squashes his wife's dream. Ever since then i lost interest, i find dating stressful, whenever i meet any lady and we start to talk, there's this feeling that comes to my mind that says this lady doesn't love you she's just desperate to get married. And i believe it to be true. Most of the ladies i meet don't care if I'm a good person or not. Once we talk and they know I'm single and working. The next conversation is come and meet my father. There's this lady i met, we've been talking for 3 days only and the next question i received was when are you coming to greet my parents. I was shocked. You don't know me, what if I'm a woman beater? Etc... Sometimes... I berate myself for pushing all these people away, I'd like to think maybe I'm being too picky or maybe my intentions are right? What are your frank assessment of me?